You Knew

 You Knew

You saw me look at his closed eyes,

That very instant I lost myself

But you knew where I put me.

My Daughters were watching me

And I was just fine

I cried out to you but had nothing to say 

And you knew the words I didn’t speak

 I Iost me right then

You knew where I left me

I wasn’t really lost just thought I was gone

 I was upset and beside myself 

you calmed me down and let me cry

The days passed and I didn’t know them

I wasn’t there to watch them go

You knew it all along and held my hand but I 

Didn’t notice you were even there

You were there when I knew he wasn’t

I thought I saw him the other day but it wasn’t him at all

I ran toward my memories but I couldn’t  see him anywhere.

Where was he anyway when he is not with me

Is he hunting or fishing or on his way

I cannot find him anywhere

 

You knew I lost me 

 even where I put me, 

You knew where I was all along

You didn’t forget me though I thought I did

You’ve loved me through it all.

Here I am again this time with you

I didn’t know it at the time

But I know it now

You are where I’m meant to be

I miss him every day 

But I must say

I love you more than I can even think to say

Because it’s you who will never leave me.

It’s you who holds my heart, it’s always been that way

My maker and my redeemer, with you I’m meant to be.

By Judy Chase

A few years ago there was a beautiful worship song "Defender" buy Jesus Culture of which I may have used some of the words and concept of the song in this poem. This poem bounces off my memory of that song and though I don't remember the song itself I want to give honor to those who wrote it and performed it for the inspiration of "You Knew".