Friday, April 18, 2025

Another Day and Boom!

 





                    




                                                     
This cutie pie just turned 81

Can't hardly believe it. Funny thing is when I turned 80 last year I felt the same way. Honestly on the inside I see myself in my mid to late 30's. Of course when I look in the mirror reality strikes and I think it's my Mother for a mini instant. Or....who is that woman in the mirror. I'm sure most women look in the mirror as the years go by and say similar things.

The thing is, that doesn't change a thing. Birthdays still come, pass on by and here comes another one. Of course in the human way to think it's a good thing but in the spiritual sense, well I'll just say there's a far better place I will be someday.

The older I get the more important eternity becomes and I'm every so glad I know where I will be when this earth suit no longer works and those that are still here will be stuck with a small box of ashes. But as for me, I'll be long gone with a new forever suit to wear that never wears out or gets sick or anything like what I've faced when my feet were on the earth.  One way or another that shouldn't be too much longer.

Now that was kinda morbid. I didn't mean it like that but it's true. I never use to think of it that way but as the years, I mean the recent years are moving on up it is something I do consider from time to time.

As for now, heres an encouraging thing for me to say. So far the 80's are a good number at least for me. I'm content in my life and though a widow life is really good. I have my new kitty "Joey" a teen aged orange tabby as my room mate. He's pretty cool for a cat.

And the rest of my life is pretty full. I live in a nice place, and apartment complex with good neighbors, I go to a good little church and facilitate a class for widows...that's new. I have family near and they are all fun and a great grand baby girl in a different state but I get to watch her on my phone. She'll be a year old shortly.

I stay pretty busy and I still spend time in my craft room and give a way what I make or use it myself. I gave my good friend some painted rocks for her prayer garden. Two lady bugs and tuo pretty beetles. I took them to her today just for grins. Every Tuesday is the widows group so I study and prepare a lesson of sorts for that, print handouts for the hour long meeting. It's a small group for now. 

I move a bit slower than I used to but I move. I do have a few plants outside and since there aren't any water faucets around I water them by hand daily, so they are cared for. I got two purple patoonia hanging pots and you have to dead head (take off the dead flowers) them everyday. They hang outon the back porch and then there are a couple of spider plants in the front in the shade and a few small plants in the little strip of garden area at the front and that's enough anyway.

That's it for now. My friend Nancy made a lemon cake with lemon frosting for my Birthday Cake and it was yummy. Got a gift card from my daughter from Hobby Lobby so I went shopping the next day and bought stuff for my craft room.

Tomorrow is Good Friday so I'll go to the service in the evening and then Suday it'll be Resurrection Sunday and then dinner at the daughters with more family. Hope all have a blessed celebration this weekend. It's really early in the am and I need to sleep so, nite nite and God Bless each and everyone. I'm Judy in the cottage with Joey sleeping right next to me. Sleep tight and goodnight.


Saturday, April 5, 2025

You Knew


 You Knew

You saw me look at his closed eyes,

That very instant I lost myself

But you knew where I put me.


My Daughters were watching me

And I was just fine

I cried out to you but had nothing to say 

And you knew the words I didn’t speak


 I Iost me right then

You knew where I left me

I wasn’t really lost just thought I was gone


 I was upset and beside myself 

you calmed me down and let me cry


The days passed and I didn’t know them

I wasn’t there to watch them go

You knew it all along and held my hand but I 

Didn’t notice you were even there

You were there when I knew he wasn’t



I thought I saw him the other day but it wasn’t him at all


I ran toward my memories but I couldn’t  see him anywhere.


Where was he anyway when he is not with me

Is he hunting or fishing or on his way

I cannot find him anywhere

 

You knew I lost me 

 even where I put me, 

You knew where I was all along

You didn’t forget me though I thought I did

You’ve loved me through it all.


Here I am again this time with you

I didn’t know it at the time

But I know it now

You are where I’m meant to be


I miss him every day 

But I must say

I love you more than I can even think to say

Because it’s you who will never leave me.

It’s you who holds my heart, it’s always been that way

My maker and my redeemer, with you I’m meant to be.


By Judy Chase


A few years ago there was a beautiful worship song "Defender" buy Jesus Culture of which I may have used some of the words and concept of the song in this poem. This poem bounces off my memory of that song and though I don't remember the song itself I want to give honor to those who wrote it and performed it for the inspiration of "You Knew".  

Another Day and Boom!

                                                                              This cutie pie just turned 81 Can't hardly believe it. Fun...