Living fully as a widow.
Over thinking is one of the regular things I do. Though off and on I try not to do that, it's just apparently what I do. This is one of those subjects. Now, why would I over think this subject...I'm sure you are interested (har-har)?
Because I are one! It's been 20 years, nearly since my beloved, one and only love...moved on and left my presence. Since I'm a believer in the triune one and only Creator of all things created, know we will meet up again in a far far better place than where we once were together. Having stipulated that fact, in my over thinking I would consider my time in as a widow a benefit in overcoming the earlier obstacles of life with out him. But is that really true? Do or will I?
Yes and No! Most of the time I'm good with my life, though that's taken much longer than this impatient kind of expectation was realized. I keep purposely busy and this is for several reasons. One is because as a senior senior it's common to not push any longer but to think it time to just rock and remember. That's not me. I'm out and about regularly visiting friends, taking care of life situations, groceries and the like. I also craft all kinds of things for self and as gifts and just because I can.
I've written a book and fixing to finish off another. Also, keep a journal. Recently I organized and put in to action a 6 week widows support group in my church. Will also do so again in the Fall. That was like a full time job. Also instigated this post.
It's true I have come through years of change in amounting to a reasonable acceptance of a widows life. I have done the don'ts and managed to learn something and have done some things in a good way for me. The question I noticed when standing in front of other widows, each one in a different time of recovery, have I really got any measure of wisdom and knowledge that is helpful in where they are at the moment?
Temporarily I've come to this: I can't fix their pain. No matter what experiences I share with them about my own struggles and successes. But, I know who can, who will, who wants to.
That statement is the footing to my personal life purpose today. My life is a success story because of where I once was and where I chose to be which has brought me to today. To top that off, it's only going to get better for me as time continues to pass. I have everything to look forward to, which gives me a confidence in life today as a widow. Where once I thought there was an end to my days, I know know that's just not true for anyone. Not for anyone!
- To answer my post question title.. I offer this,
- I know at the beginning my form I am an eternal being..
- I know every human being is eternal...
- I know we have all been given free will...
- I know we get to choose the change of our earth suit style...
- I have made the choice to change my earth suit for a perfect suit without any blemish...perfect!
- I have made the choice to live a beautiful eternity full of abundance of every good thing.
